WOW...highs and lows to no end!

I've come so close to giving up on this journey the past week. I'll be honest. I said it. I said it because it's true. Life just got in the way...life just got to hard. But you know what? Life will never get any easier whether I give up and wait a few days or a few weeks or even a few years...there will always be another challenge on another day! So here I sit after a completely stressful week and another stressful one on tap to realize I haven't made good choices and I'll be dammed if I got in any exercise. But I'm not quitting. It's not who I am. It may have been who I was but I'm not that person anymore.

I missed my weigh-in yesterday as I completely lost track of what day it was and I've hummed and hawed this morning on if I should go and weigh-in today and the decision I made was no. I know that I could but the fact is it's my fault I didn't go. It's my fault I don't get to see the progress I've made or not made this week so I'm going to do the best I can do to work extra hard and hopefully have a bigger loss next week to give me a bit of extra motivation. I will however perhaps go and join a meeting to hear what they have to say.

Last week was my Superbowl...lots of food and none of it really that healthy and the stuff that WAS healthy I ate way too much of to be healthy anymore LOL I did make cupcakes with applesauce and they were DELICIOUS however...I ruined it with the frosting I slabbed on top ... OOPS but at least it wasnt as bad as regular cupcakes with the slabbed on frosting :) Little victories ....

One of the things I'm getting with my taxes return money is a gym membership...sure I have the outdoors and the wii and the videos but there is something I miss about the gym...there is motivation there... I'm looking to develop a routine to combine my love for the outdoors (which i'll admit hasn't been fully developed yet) and my love for the feeling after a good workout to the competition of the wii! I'll make it work...I NEED to make it work. At this point it's no longer a want it's a NEED. I'm getting older and by 30 when life is really suppose to begin as they say I want to be able to embrace it....truly embrace it! Time is ticking...can you hear it? Tick tock tick tock tick tock...