I'm backkkkkkk

Okay so for those of you that watch lifetime, yes I know it's a girl channel, there is a show on there called Diet Tribe.

It's like biggest loser in a way but it's more "real life" not out on a ranch with people doing their food 24/7. They are with their family with their friends and what they do for exercise is what every american can do. I'm sure there is probably more behind the scenes because it is after all a tv show...however, it's a group of 5 friends this year and they agree to loose 50 pounds in 120 days...so I thought "What the hell...why not me?" Except i'll be doing it all alone...no trainer...no group of 5 friends who also need to loose weight...no tv show to keep me accurate.

What I have for motivation is much better. I will have my life and some quality time with friends at the end! What more could I ask for? I may not have a smoking hott body but if I make it to the end of this challenge...no wait WHEN I make it to the end of this challenge i'll be well on my way to one!!

So here I go...hopefully this will be an honest up close look at my life and my struggles and inside my mind. I'm sorry in advance if I hurt anyone's feelings or take things the wrong way but this is truly a look at my journey...from the inside!

As I sit here today - here are my stats

WEIGHT: 276.5 pounds

**Note measurements will be filled in later...left the note on the bed**
I probably take my measurements different the most but I figure as long as I take them again the same way in 120 days i'll still notice the difference...

NECK:
RIGHT UPPER ARM:
BREASTS:
CHEST:
WAIST:
HIPS
RIGHT UPPER THIGH:
RIGHT CALF:

To be honest i'm a bit nervous about this journey but Saturday night and the people that came up to me and honestly said I looked great gave me a boost...that was only after 14 pounds...can't imagine what they are going to say after another 50!!

By the end of the night I was like okay I get it people stop, enough already! But the fact is they were trying to be nice and tell me I looked good and I remembered that and went with it but it felt weird...i'm not used to people telling me I look nice in any other way besides polite. Becuase the fact is...I never do. I'm an oversized, late 20s, single girl who has a lot going for her but it's covered in all kinds of fat. I'm not convinced you could see the 14 pounds gone but more my attitude and confidence in myself made my outward appearance completely changed...it's amazing what a bit of confidence will do to a person. It was a feeling I hope I never forget...especially during this journey.

I'll hopefully have my official before pictures up soon and probably a picture or two of my "fat" pictures that I have up for motivation...so hopefully i'll never get that way again! I did find my jeans from when I was at my heaviest a few years ago...maybe I'll put those on and take a picture too...i'm saving them - I'll never throw those away. I wrote right on the inside...FAT JEANS!!!

Well i'm off to drink my water, invest in charmin stock and head to class...

Along with my daily posts of my day i'll also post articles that I think are interesting so hopefully this journey won't be one I'll be doing alone but even if it is it's okay becuase "me, myself, and I" are enough...

Till later,
B